Awesome weekend

Last night I went to bed with a big smile of my face and ready for another week of anything possible. Finally, I feel like I am really enjoying things now and there isn't this stupid voice going la la la in my head, wittering on about 'arse' (a lot of thoughts yet nothing productive).
That is what I have decided to call it. Arse.

I've had longer hours, more things to do at work and loved it. I've been writing, having meetings about some freelance volunteer writing, and now my creative course is finished I'll have more time on Saturdays to explore and visit anything I want. I've even been sorting out house bills e.t.c for the flat I've moved into with my friend, and, as scary as the prices are it's all worth it because it's a nice place, great company and for me-it is home.

Yesterday, my house mate Hazal and I took a walk around Brixton market and village. I fell in love. The place is filled with cute cafes/restaurants, it has a cupcake shop, sweetshop, vintage shops and wicked fish markets/delis. Brixton really feels like a hidden gem in that sense, you get there and think there might not be much there, but it's just hidden down side roads or undercover in the village!

I'm hoping I'll get more opportunities to write reviews on places for my freelance writing. It's for a website called http://www.theculturalexpose.co.uk/tag/hollie-hines/. It's a great friendly website filled with great motivation to go out and explore, crediting the user as an 'urban adventurer'. Please take a look and tell people about it if you ever need a certain something to see, hear, eat, or somewhere to go in London. I found this piece on there today, (see link above). It's something that I wrote last June when things were very fuzzy. I was told to write back after I'd had more experience with creative writing. What I didn't know, was that this piece was published October last year. Most isn't my words, but the parts which I suggested in June have been used-I know it's small, but it really means a lot to me that the parts most like my personality where used in this case (plus in my nerdy way, it's pretty cool to have your name on a website). It's some steps forward to having something published, my goal is to have something published which hasn't had too much editing. In this case there was, but it's a start and because of this piece, well I emailed back again this year, asked for another chance and I was given it (largely based on the fact I emailed a second time round) and I got more opportunities from it. Thank you cultural expose, not many opportunities like this are around for those keen to write, and experience it in this form. For me, it's wicked. Hopefully this page will fill up sometime soon with more of my work. If not, slap me silly- I better come up with something else to fill my time!

I need to make sure I give myself more time to blog, because i've really missed it. Instead I've been putting my energy into my creative writing, certain pieces I have feedback for which I'd like to edit into the work. I think studying something for 6 weeks, for £89 is amazing. It gives you a chance to flavour a new world of learning, for a price which isn't going to kill you. Some courses are over a year for at least £500. I don't think you need a whole year to be taught how to write. If you want to write, just write, and of course read as much as you'd like along the way.

For me, I've realised that perhaps I'm not the most enthusiastic novelist. I mean, I find it hard enough to read a whole book now (something I was better at as a kid), because as I've got older I'm much fussier towards what I want to read about. Once something is written, it becomes dated, these days I'm much more interested in hearing about now; fast fast fast, learning learning learning, about people and places and getting out there and experiencing. I'd rather write for magazine, website and of course where it started for me, blogs. You could say it's a shame that sitting down with a book makes me restless. I am a obsessive compulsive multitasker where my brain works like a slot machine and everything must flow, in place. I read whilst travelling, I read whilst listening to music, eating breakfast, in between getting ready I check my emails. I like to keep busy and this holds my motivation and enthusiasm. I just crave more as it's when I feel my best. If you asked me to the cinema, well, I'd say, ermmmm, because even the thought makes me want to go for a run. I'm a bit of a nightmare, but with this I think comes the best ideas for development and drive for adventure. Who would ever want to stop?!...

I'm my own worst enemy, but I kind of like it ;)

After a year, I really feel like myself again and the disappointment is getting less.

Can I get a 'whoop whoop!?'...Yeahhh, I just can't pass that kind of 'cool' off.