Limitless life drugs

I've just watched the film 'Limitless'. To some up in one and for the purpose of this post, guy leads great life by taking a drug and suffers the consequences of it too.

A few things I'd like to point out: taking a drug to enhance life and access knowledge, a film showing the beneficiaries of taking a drug, the lack of attention to the effects of coming off a drug, and the side effects.

More importantly though I think the key area to address after watching the film is that by taking this drug 'NZT', the main character forgot a few days of his life. How can a life be worth living if you forget what you have done with it.

A night out, drunk-'I can't remember half the night', once in a while is probably something no-one can fault you for (and this I don't mean it being a monthly thing, perhaps it more so being a once in a blue moon 'out of character' act). Drugs, just don't be addicted and dependant... (I don't think anyone should get themselves into a position when a substance can inhibit short term parts of your memory) they also should never be a consistent habitual enhancement of life (but then what isn't, but surely that's a whole other subject to discuss). Either way, I think too much use of substances (of course bearing in mind the proven side effects of taking anything) can create a disillusioned way of living.

Of course, substances (alcohol and substances well known as 'drugs') were in no way created in order to escape from our daily experiences. I'm sure most things created in this world were made for a purpose and some genius discovered other potentials for them too. Perhaps I'm struggling to get my words out clearly here, to try and summarise!... What I'm trying to say is, why hide behind it?

I'd much rather live as now then on something controlling my body and my brain trying to adapt and work with or against it, instead of me knowing I am in control. It is a false way of living and there has to be a balance. An easy example; we indulge way too much with alcohol to access its 'drug' effects, yet it's something widely accepted as it has been made accessible. The self has the ability to access the limitless of life without the intake of anything.

I think substances bring on a danger of 'knowing' or seeming self assured, within that moment whilst being on that drug-but once it's gone, then what? We are left with the over kill, the hangover, the come down, the withdrawals. The facing facts. But, if by whatever stage you are at using them and you aren't addicted, we get over them just like we get over problems and trauma and anything else which kicks our ass throughout the year and blows our brains out. Too many problems create heartbreak, and if we don't get over that then perhaps we would all die, because life wouldn't be worth living in constant pain, incurable. I mean look at those people with terminal conditions, they know the true essence of life only it is too late for them. They go out there, and make the most of their day-whatever makes them happy, naturally. They get it before life has gone, but they have to because they have less time than others.

For me, so much has felt like a dead end. I've felt like I'm 80 when i'm only 22. So much has felt like, well this is it so what is there to look forward to now, and everything became a quick fix-the natural pleasures of life became a drug itself, I was escaping way too much from the truth of all things.

A helpful pure way of 'knowing' for me personally, would to be out in a swarm of music, just as me. People, crowds,  new and familiar faces amongst the looks of pure pleasure and enjoyment. Isn't that a time when you take a step back and breathe it all in. A room of happy-what else could you ask for really? I wouldn't want to take myself out from the environment and moment. We take, have, try things as an enhancement, but if life is all about enjoying ourselves and balancing our ways and things we do to allow us to enjoy ourselves (money being a massive factor) then how can we ever give ourself a chance to really know what life is if so many times we try to take ourself away from it-with indulgence of substance?

There is always going to be a time when on a high that you have to come back down, because that just is life. They didn't call it a roller coaster for nothing. Sure, there are ways we enhance life and make the most out of things, but with balance (easy example, wine over dinner). I could bet that going out for a night out, social occasion-whatever, if there was no alcohol-that would put some people off. It would make them feel at unease, because they don't have the natural buzz and their safety net has gone?... because alcohol lowers our inhibitions and puts all our worries aside?

I remembered and know now that feeling of confidence when walking felt like floating. Yes, I know I sound like I am on something-but I'm really not. Isn't this just the potential we can all access without relying on substances to create it quicker, than self creating it purely? Natural highs perhaps.

I've said before, our brain is like a maze and it would seem that drugs allow us to access certain parts of our way of thinking quicker than we possibly could by our own natural selves. Isn't that what the film Limitless is all about, remembering those moments, seconds when we heard something to remember and it stuck. If only we could remember consistently our life lessons, perhaps that perspective would access the purity of life itself, that most amazing feeling you get when something right has happened, all those times when a day brings good news, when something you had been waiting for for ages finally happens. Those positive feelings. To have accessibility to them everyday, for whatever happens in each day to still seem like no problem at all. Perhaps that is a life without stress (i know this blog has turned into a reel off)...

I could say I think, but this time I know. There is always another way around things and I know where it has all stemmed from knowing... learning, and learning the same lessons again for me personally. Maybe we shouldn't be looking for ways to bring ourselves back up, but perhaps for ways to bring ourselves down- it seems that only if you get that far down can you really access the knowledge to live by the know how of what is right for you-what makes life worth living for you.

Unfortunately, we are all human and humans make mistakes. Sometimes life lessons don't seem to be something we take too seriously to immediately gather the information from. We don't always realise until it is too late, that the answers were staring at us in the face the whole time, we just chose to ignore them. This is why we end up turning to someone for advice because when you aren't under pressure from the stress of the situation, you can see the clearer picture and the answers for someone else are all too clear. It makes life seem like a simple equation to solve, for experiences most of us would all deem just too crazy to deal with. I know the perspective is out there for us all to obtain, some get it quicker than others-that again is the whole magic of life. It is ALL about life lessons, good and bad.

What interests me are the situations we get ourselves into and those that fall into our hands. These experiences seem to encourage our minds to truly appreciate everything that we have been taught, even if it is those same life lessons repeated over time.